Tuesday, July 28, 2009

The Baby is Here!

The surgery went really well, thank you every one for all of your prayers! The recovery has been a little difficult, being in a lot of pain and not being able to move much, but having a beautiful baby to focus on has made the time pass and so enjoyable! Here are some pictures of our precious little munchie.


Therese Aria Kelley!
Born July 21, 2009
7 lbs. 10 oz.
20.5 inches long

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

The date is set

I had my final appointment with my doctor on Monday. I thought for the last week or so that the baby was turning between head down and transverse, but after getting a set of hiccups in the office and another ultrasound, it was confirmed that she is still bottom down. I don't think she has moved in weeks and at this point, her bottom is engaged. So it is pretty unlikely that she will turn, but my doctor is still giving me until 40 weeks to give it one last shot. Nevertheless, the cesarean has been scheduled. It is scheduled for Tuesday, July 21st at 7:30am. So if baby Kelley hasn't turned before Tuesday at 5am, then we will have our baby girl that morning. Aaron and I are spending the rest of the week preparing mentally and getting everything situated in the house.

Saturday, July 11, 2009

I'm finally giving up control

This last week has been a trying one for me dealing with all the emotions of a c-section in the very near future. I've been grieving the loss of a natural childbirth, everything that I wanted and worked so hard for. As excited as I've been to see my baby girl, the fear of the surgery over-shadowed my excitement and I didn't want her to come yet. After worrying and crying for the hundredth time, Aaron said to me, "Why do you fret the things you can't control?" And it hit me. I fight it because I wish it was different. Even though I know I can't change it, I just wish that I could. I am a controller of circumstances and realized at that moment that the Lord was teaching me to give up control in another area of my life. Then He reminded me of the control I tried to have early in my pregnancy, the provision that was provided for those moments and the peace that later came. I worried first about getting pregnant with my health issues and he responded with blessing us with a child before the doctors thought possible. I worried second about finding a doctor who would keep me on my same thyroid medication and after calling a hundred offices found a doctor who would. Then lastly I worried about being on the right dose of thyroid so that my baby would develop properly and most importantly not miscarry, and He not only protected the baby, but blessed me with a thyroid that functioned better than it did before I was pregnant. I had to give up control and I find myself in the same position now. It's easier to live when you don't worry and let the person who is in control, be in control. He is more wise and powerful than I.

So this morning for the first time I find myself at total peace. Peace that I did everything I could to have a healthy pregnancy and prepare for birth and there are still circumstances out of my control. Aaron and I feel we have tried everything we believe to be safe to get the baby to turn and she still hasn't at this time. There is a reason for that, one that we may never discover, but we know that we have to trust the Lord's wisdom and provision. He has led us down this path for a reason and everything will be okay. The surgery is not my first choice and I'm sure I will be nervous the morning going into it, but at least I know I am not alone. My heavenly father will be with me every step of the way and my husband right by my side. And in the end, we will have a beautiful child to share. There is still a chance that she may turn before the surgery, but at least I'm prepared for either option and at peace with whatever happens. I'm enjoying the rest of my pregnancy and anticipating holding my baby girl in my arms very soon.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

A Thankful Heart

With the thoughts of a c-section looming over my head the last few days, I've been an emotional wreck. A good friend of mine suggested that I make a list of all the things that I am thankful for in this pregnancy to get my mind off of the negative. So in an effort to renew my mind and change my attitude from sour to thankful, I compiled a list and I'm posting it for all to read in hopes that I may be held accountable. Here it is.

1. With all of my health problems, I was told I wasn't ovulating and would not be able to get pregnant without proper treatment. Before testing or treatment could be done, the Lord blessed us with a little miracle.

2. My thyroid medication dose should have increased 30-50%, but instead was decreased by 50% and my thyroid gland has been functioning perfectly.

3. I have had no adrenal issues and have enjoyed perfect health since I've been pregnant.

4. My hormones are the most stable they have been in years.

5. I have had less fatigue being pregnant than when I was struggling with my adrenal glands. I was able to perform until 6 months and teach my fitness classes until 8 months.

6. Despite the increased risk of miscarriage for me, I've been able to keep the baby.

7. Our baby girl is healthy and measuring right where she should be.

8. I have been blessed with the opportunity and great responsibility of raising up a disciple of Christ.

9. I feel closer to Aaron and more in love with him because of the amazing support he's given me.

10. I am thankful for the opportunity to learn to be selfless and serve others.

11. It's amazing to be able to grow a life inside my body. I've enjoyed watching it change in support of God's perfectly orchestrated plan.

Praise the Lord for this tiny miracle! I'm giving up my will and trusting the Lord with the outcome of this birth. He has been faithful to me through this entire pregnancy and I know He will continue to be faithful. May this child bring glory to the Kingdom of Heaven no matter how she enters the world.

"Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good. His love endures forever." ~Psalm 136:1